Tour the Inner World: Edie Sedgwick & Living Words

Exploring The feeling of Aloneness and Purpose: Edie Sedgwick

2011-09-25T06:47:00.000-07:00

Look What I Found

2011-09-16T18:32:00.000-07:00

Today while talking to my love and friend, Touseef, he reminded me of an old blog he started for me.

I thought it was so sweet that he made this on his own doing:

http://edie-is-back.blogspot.com

He has always been supportive of my journey since day 1. We both found ourselvesacross the world thinking we were reincarnated. He had told family that he believed he was Quaid Azaim, a political leader of Pakistan who was responsibleFor many changes in Pakistan.

And so we were able to talk about our previous lives. It was more support and encouragement than anyone could ever show.There were no sideways looks of doubt, pure listening.

He didn't touch on the blog after this as we are all busy, but he always told me similar to what he said in the post,he watched firsthand as I would predict power failure times in his country and see things in his room he didn't even realize and thishappened on a near daily basis.

Gratitude,

Mariah E./Edie S.

OSHO

2011-09-16T18:21:00.000-07:00

"There are only two types of people: one, who escape from their loneliness the majority, the ninety-nine point nine percent, who escape from themselves; and the remaining point one percent is the meditator, who says,"If loneliness is a truth, then it is a truth; then there is no point in running away from it.It is better to go into it, encounter it, see it face to face, what it is. "Meditation means going into your loneliness wholeheartedly, to discover it, to investigate into it, to inquire into it. That's what meditation is all about"

-OSHO

Photo: Visionary Artist Luke Brown

Dear Friends,

2011-09-16T18:18:00.001-07:00

September 10, 2011 2:58AM

I Spoke to a wonderful person today and he encouraged me.I am back, realizing how much I have missed posting here.

I had a really long day. Woke up early my mom came and we made a big pot of soup. I only slept an hour maybe, so in the afternoon I took a nap.Touseef and I have been having problems. After talking to this person below I feel the urge to call him up all lies, and deception from him aside.

God has an order to all orchestrations.Sometimes a human soul can be so sweet that it almost makes you sick how much we are made and imbued with Love, or maybe it's just me being sensitive. We must be there for others.

Tonight I pondered to talk to someone. I was not going to, saying, "Mariah you did that before, don't make the same mistake." I decided to say hi and simply ask if it was ok that I talk. I would ask him to be open minded anytime and to not shut me out at anytime. You can criticize me, challenge me etc. but I don't like to be turned down so quickly, because I have come so far as a soul.

Yes, I was a little nervous but I imagine that would go away over time.It's nice when a person you don't even know shares time with you while being so sleepy in bed that their eyes are getting lazy. It's the random moments like this I cherish. This was not an ordinary person but a Special Soul. Moments like waving at a baby in the store and their face lights up, those are great moments. When you feel connected to people.

I Ask the creator to balance fears of rejection with optimism. To let it be known I care and want to share more than ever to gain. I will do all those things and be most loyal to those in life who belong to be in my life.

I like this idea you gave me, this new direction. It's already making ripples on the water.

I ask myself what can I give?

I have plenty to share in the form of ideas and from the place of interconnected oneness.

In any case, I'll remember your face,

how your nice eyes lie gentle behind the frames of your glasses.

A supple face and an honest and inquisitive person from what i gather.

In my life I'd always been the one to ask many questions, here someone asks me things and its a great feeling.

In any case, at the end of the long day, sitting in the dark I place my hands on my heart and I send light to you.

LAST NIGHTS DREAM

When i took a nap today I had a quick dream: Something about getting a chance to model in a quick shoot and that I would be paid just to shoot and nothing much really. In the dream I turned it down and was regretting while others went through. This has meaning to sieze things while they come and already before I woke up it affected me. I don't remember the other hazy details.

More later I will lie down now.

Love and light,.

'People are goin think they're dealing with a dead person"

2011-09-16T18:16:00.001-07:00

Friday, November 12, 2010

'People are goin think they're dealing with a dead person"I said, as she hung up her daughters long brown coat with the fur hood on the other side of the room,mother looks so baffled like she spins her wheels with the girl, like she can't get throughHer daughter is long gone from the ordinary world.She elevated, she graduated she evolved faster than those around her.She's just on a whole other level and thats not to say she's not like the rest.

A pin drops because she can't talk about what she loves anymore.Wouldn't it be a strange world if we took away key topics from peoplethat they were so passionate about, one by one?

We already live in a police state, yet not everyone realizes it.We think we love people but we really don't know the depths of our own selves,So we meddle with the shallow waters and run from time, but one day time will come crashin' down.

If we all didn't like one aspect about someone next to us enough to rule it outwe'd silence the whole world, and that is now why we are here.

We came forth to this planet to be "co-creators," as Abraham-Hicks says, never to know someone or change someone.I speak about my previous life; this life is merely an extension of that and others.I find complete love -- where laughter, stories, thoughts or any such thing -- devalues or lessons someone in the eyes of another.--------

People think I am naturally quiet or that I don't like to talk, exact opposite.

Amen,

Mariah E.

Gold Nuggets From Rock Bottom

2011-09-16T18:15:00.000-07:00

Thursday, November 11, 2010 3:22AM

And so...Sometimes in life we have to reach the bottom if it means coming out stronger.This is what happened to me today. I hit rock bottomSomeone reminded me of Mother Theresa, he told me that self-charity is the best charityHe told me a lot of things, at first I was upset that he underestimated my pain because I Live in America, a spoiled and imperial country. He lives in India and told me of the beggers on the streets and how they got there. He challenged my security and self created boundariesand I am grateful because now I can fly again.

I also spoke to my brother for a few hours which is really rare, I want to tell you the gold nugget I picked up and I agree with firsthand: something about tomorrows always come and this is a different way to look at it, but when you've made a mistaken day think of the tomorrows and if by chance you are not there you won't know any better.

There is wisdom all around, when will we see?

I am reminded of my goals, dreams, twinsoul, where I want to be.Make sure that you come out stronger! No matter whatGet Stronger Everyday

Thank you simply,

I will write to show you above all that our souls carry on.

2011-09-16T17:38:00.000-07:00

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I will write to show you above all that our souls carry on.You see...I'm much more like Dylan than any of you realize. I say that because he was and is still my very best friend.

Since that time I have not and will not find a friend that I desire to be near again so much. We didn't have to try, we had telepathy and a sacred bond that I will not delve into too much. You can forget any blame of him for my death please, and know that he did do many things to call out and warm me as he had a sixth sense on myself that even I didn't know or was not so aware of at the time.

You may think I am an impersonator, but I am here doing this blog because I DO have a lot to say on life, my previous incarnation and the PRESENT moment which is very important.

You will find many sites that just have quotes and pictures, this is different.

I don't usually look up Edie stuff online but tonight I decided to look for some rare pictures I ended up back to www.edienation.com

Around the stars, why?

2011-09-16T17:30:00.000-07:00

Dear Lord,

I'm listening to them spit them beats, I'm loving an I'm rememberin'--

I've always been lucky to meet with the stars, the actors, the dancers...the musicians, the artists;

these people shine. I get myself around them by bein who I am. I am one of them afterall.

Sometimes I wish people could guess or read my mind.

A Lesson In TwinFlames and Learning

2011-09-16T17:26:00.000-07:00

June 7, 2010

"One liners...inner thoughts that people might like to know. not pages...unique." ~Mariah

A lesson in Twin-Flame love and learning.This morning I did this, I got into a zone and autographed His name and autographed Edie Sedgwick also. I'm astounded. What's the word for it when handwriting matches, I don't remember, but I've heard of this. Many of my writings and scribbled drawings on them match. I will scan then all some day.

"you don't need her," I said talking of myself in third person.sending encoding messages by intent.smiling and knowing it was sentand nothing has to make perfect "sense."

In other words even if we are a Twinflame/Twinsoul, a phenomena in such examples as Mary Magdalene and Jesus, we don't "need" the other. We have to be whole within. And send strength to those we care for.

I can't formulate it into one thing it has to be day by day.

The-Daily-Spiritual-Manuscripts

2011-09-16T17:06:00.000-07:00

April 4, 2010

My word is my ARTI will try to combine all packed wisdom, visions, flashes, hunches into a page...into a book.

Spent time in the Dead city.the outlines of houses and boats on the canalthe trees look like a fiery hell before dawnand then the image of palm trees becomes clear.I'm sensing for miles zooming outand all i feel is concrete and ghosts.

Lean your head backLean your neck backkeeping praise to GodSensing the magic.

And doesn't it seem natural that stars of people shinestars of a person shine through their eyes.

9:01AMI don't tell 'em where I am, but where I wanna be.I don't tell 'em who I am, but what I AMI AM that I AM and before the I.

"And today I've got my business mind on."

One of My Inspirations

2011-09-16T17:04:00.000-07:00

Monday, June 7, 2010

thanx Wayne.

You are a man of God, your a mystical soul, a seer of sorts.I beleive you may be Bob Marley Reincarnated...It's just a theory an analysis of voice and spirit in the eyes.A similar drive an almost replicated life. Some don't get youbut they are missing out on a real talented Artist.

Organize-Recognize

2011-09-16T17:02:00.000-07:00

Monday, June 7, 2010

Organize-
Recognize
Controllers of her world are in place.

It's so natural to sing as a prayer.
She's busy in the morning
Behind the shades--there

We're getting ready for the show
I'm getting you prepped up and
You might not realize it.
Instead of sleeping, I had to stay up.

(Here I was sending light to Bobby before his show)

So I can be unknown--

2011-09-16T16:57:00.000-07:00

June 7, 2010

So I can be unknown--So long before in the world, love, I thought someone has to be this way, that way or like me.Now I look from 'self' at-'self' in others.

We are limiting our mind potential when we shut out the creative aspect.I want to be a loverAnd a good wife somedayI want the lavish lifeluxury so that I can be free to have nothingI want treasure's; notorietyso i can be unknown

Maybe I want it all at my front doorBut what I want more,To be a survivalist to live outdoorsand to be an explorer

-Gypsy Girl cares

Dear Home,

2011-09-16T16:51:00.001-07:00

Dear Home,
So I have an idea, I will get there.
Home, I am writing to you
Life is one big motion of sound

I'll admit I'm listening to walking down the line
I am- I want to be- the most real person ever,
Is that so boring?
I am sorry I've been blocking you
I got a late start but my navel is
blossoming and you're on the phone
Tellin' me via telepathy.

We lean forward to much in life
Why don't we just kick back,
point our third eye to the sky again
These words are just documenting the form changes.

This love is being poured on me, I'm loving it and
letting it in NOW.
"Why don't you finish your thoughts,"
"They're not thoughts?" Mum asked

"I don't know what they are," I replied,
I need help articulating. I don't even know what it is...
they're not thoughts just messages."
-------
Observing the morning rain...

"I thought I saw a butterfly but it was rain finding its home on the branches and flowers and I know this body won't last me." m.e.

"I know this empty feeling so wide, sometimes it can be unknown." m.e

Dedication:

2011-09-16T16:49:00.000-07:00

Monday, June 7, 2010

I dedicate this blog to our beautiful tribe on this planet who are awakened and those who are still asleep. No one wins the race if we all do not join back together as one, and we all must return sometime.

I dedicate this page to Angels and Airwaves I could list the reasons but I'd rather you listen to them, watch a video, their movie or if you can, see them live.

My hopes for this is to share my particular written diary/blog posts that declare Love, Light, Spirit, Poetry, The other side, God/Allah whatever you call the divine.
Often times I feel like I'm being communicated to about it. when I was just 12 I started writing it all out. this shall be a place to share truth.

I find it quite amazing how similar our paths may be, looking thru these writings I have before I knew who Angels and Airwaves were and then coming face to face with them like a comet, I decided to put my writings out there to show that we are guided to the light, and there are no coincidences in life, everything I believe has divine timing. There are people on this planet who are carving the way, they are special types, like Indigos, starseeds, and yet we all have cosmic origins and so let us learn and embrace them.

I felt alone in this very personal feeling mission before, as of 5/15/2010 I experienced something shift.

I WILL NOW TRANSFER BLOG ENTRIES FROM MY OTHER SITE

2011-09-16T16:47:00.003-07:00

Well in order to synthesize my diary into one place I'll transfer them here.

These posts do follow succession in date, so the entire "edieeternal" is organized by proper dates.

As Always Thanks,

Mariah E./ Edie S.

A Messenger

2009-11-03T22:34:00.000-08:00

"There's only one way to go-Up!"
-Mariah E.

I have this ability and I've been honing it for a longtime.

Basically when I see someone in person or in a photo I can read them. It's kind of like an energy signature but I can gauge their concisciousness level in my own way, but the key is that I can deliver a message and sometimes the message isn't even my own.

I am a messenger and by noticing and if you work with me I can put you into alignment with your spirit.

Pictures or words come through, sometimes I ask a question to invoke a response but either way I can find a way to bypass the mind to get the message or re-minder back to you, where it belongs.

As always, I hone my skills daily and I hope to offer insight to anyone seeking or lost on the road of awakening. Whether your lost in the separation phase or swimming in new concepts of awakening I can help you journey to Satsang, and before you know you'll be assisting me.

When you care about enlightenment,conciousness and truth before all, you'll find treasures in unforseen things.

this quote of mine ties this blog together as it relates:
"There's only one way to go-- Up!."

Love, Mariah

Shutterfly Pic

2009-11-03T22:29:00.001-08:00

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Mariah The Muse On A Miss-eon

2009-10-28T01:56:00.000-07:00

Do you know who Edie Sedgwick is?

How do I properly say this...
Edie as far as I am concerned runs in my bones, arms and body.
She is the spirit that animates these slender fingers a typin'.
To help you understand and relate better, because she feels you are shaking your head saying you don't believe she is me and I am her, she goes on to give me permission to tell you for the purpose of understanding that we have teamed together as one.
To prove this scientifically I have no evidence for you.
I do have many stories and experience that line up accurately.
I hope to help others understand how I came to find myself as 'the Living trapped inside the living.'
Death is just like getting new clothing and moving into the non-physical.

A friend and I, I'll call him Forest well we talked about Spirit, Peace Corps, Asexuality, the power of tin-foil, Travel, Marriage and the Wilderness among other things. Ironically, he told me he and a gal just saw B.D out in Seattle recently. It's nice to connect. He always supported me and was around me in H.S. as quiet and an outsider I was, he never thought to judge. We had more in common than I realized then. Life is a parallel universe. Understand the mirrors and you better know what's inside of you too.
Here is a snippet of our convo, he is Forest and I am Dream:

Forest:
well I've had this idea a couple days ago
about being lost in the woods for days
until you become an animal'
but I feel like its a direct representation of my life
I feel more connected with mother nature so i take her gifts.

Dream: Ah wouldn't that be beautiful
I've heard of some people doing that...like...there's this lady with a series of books
ANASTASIA,
animal-like hardcore, I wanna be an animal again; humans have gotten too disconnected

Forest:
I'm lost in this society and I just resort in becoming one of them because I can't find someone to relate to.

He paid me a real nice compliment, he told me in H.S. he had a huge crush on me and was intimidated by me and he said, "Intimidating because most girls at that age were the same and dull--not you." Thank you Forest, you were and are a good friend to me, and even though I didn't think I was intimidating at all, I'm glad you thought high of me.

Isomnia is a friend we've come to know well..
I'll leave off with a fresh quote of my own:

"I Am Not a Starving Artist, I Am Unfinished
-Mariah

TwinFlame Forum

2009-10-19T02:04:00.000-07:00

This is a Great summation of Twin Flames which I found in this here forum:
http://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/

Reply by Captin Sayzarzillion>

Is there anything in life Greater then Twin Flame? I dont think so, if there is let me know.Before there was Stars and Galaxies and Universes and Solar Systems and Planets,There was Twin Flames ,The Alpha and Omega ,The beginning and ending of all relationships,The Father/Mother God which gave Birth to all relationships.Alpha and Omega,Infinitely and Endlessly Impregnated with twin flames ,Forevermore giving birth to another set of twin flames into form from the formless,Out of 1 Single Atom Twin Flames are born yet not born at all as they have always existed as 1 within the 1 unique Atom from which they came,to become 2! This is our Divine Origin, the place of all our beginnings ,within the Atom of Alpha and Omega ,Thee 1 Atom that contains within Itself an Endless and Infinite number of other atoms each with their own unique blueprint of Identity,no 2 the same,within the Atom Burns the Flame of Alpha and Omega of you and your twin flame!

As the days pass, I am more synced to my True Friend whom I left briefly last life, and I came back and found him once more. We have the same birthmarks under each eye directly horizontal, I find that nice. I will share some artwork.

Have a great day, 'til next time!

As always I use the name he knew me by, adding my own twist.

Edith
"Faith"
Sedgwick

"I Need a Sunday Kind of Love"

2009-10-18T04:49:00.000-07:00

Thinking of Him
Sunday Oct 18th, 2009
7:31AM
--
Mmm I love this song it's called, "Froggy Went a Courtin'"
reminds me of days of smiling youth.

Trust me I know
I used to doubt it
but I don't any more.

You've always been a smiley soul
And...

No matter how serious people think/thought you were
I love to see you light up when I see you at a show
I'll bring the unselfish love of the cosmos
And the angel guides and send it with my eyes!

Alex Jones: Question Reality

2009-10-13T01:24:00.000-07:00

Question Reality

"The Least you can do is investigate,
the minimum that is expected of you
as a sentient being is to question your reality."

This video gives me chills, he cares about our spirit, may more please wake up!
Amen

THANK YOU Alex Jones.

Whispering to your Heart

2009-10-12T16:05:00.000-07:00

I'm so happy to know my Twinflame is carrying forth the song he wrote about our experience.

Just like Edie Sedgwick came in and took his attention, she's back doing much of the same, driving him insane? No intention of doing so.
(re-incarnation)

So I'll keep whispering to my own heart, and know it is sent to his heart instantly.
I'll whisper love, and I'll be by your side
best I can while I'm not there.

Think No Time and No Space-and I'll see you soon manifest.
All fears fall away, and so in that do the chains.
we are escaping a world of slaves.

All my Love,
Edie Sedgwick
7/7/07

2009-10-11T05:20:00.000-07:00

Something amazing has developed in my Twinflame just today.
It will cycle to him, I know it--that we will soon be meeting face to face.

I haven't spoke to him since last life too.

However, when you want something and you finally get it will you love it,
are you ready for love?

One of my Favorite Songs ever actually by Elton John is "Are you ready for love"
have a listen!

AFFIRMATIONS

2009-10-11T04:55:00.000-07:00

Enjoy... and if they resonate use them, and don't be afraid to contact me!

1. I am becoming more and more creative,
2. My creativity is growing in all directions of time
3. I am glowing with joy
4. I am that success
5. I was made to succeed as an entrepreneur and in business
6. I AM That (anything you think you aren't) lol
7. Everyday I am growing creatively
8. Ideas come to me
9. I am in tune with my Twinflame
10. I am beautiful
11. People are drawn to meMariah E.

Re-incarnation

2009-10-11T04:50:00.000-07:00

Reincarnation Is like a full time-JOB or HOBBY
Until you can come to terms with the NOW moment
Where everything is occuring at once.

Therefore I don't agree with people who say,"don't look to your past-life"
~~Why would you want to live in your past-life?~~
My take is you can know it and not be caught in it, surely.
It might be better to have deep seated roots, like a tree to earth, than not right?

I think it's great to know where you are in all locations; All-inclusive.

'Til next time~

Tips for Twinflame Unification

2009-10-11T04:01:00.000-07:00

My Friends and readers,

Tips to Unify with your Twinflame/Twinsoul versus a soulmate.

Here in my experience I'll share tips in my own words that may help you too:

1. A Soulmate can pull you in,
looking through your eyes to theirs you sense a familiarity,
chances are it feels familiar because you have discovered a long lost
"special" friend, a best kept secret that in meeting is no more a secret.

2. You may feel intense attraction and lust, this feels like a twinsoul...
but be careful it could be a strong pull because you are meant to balance
an energy or karma with this particular Soulmate.

3. A Twinflame have a double strength energy feel
4. Mirrors are key, from self to self as one self.
with a soulmate you may have much in common but not see yourself in them
as a direct and pure mirror reflecting back to you all that you are.

5. You have telepathy with your twinflame's emotions and can connect to their smile via your own.

6. Time and space are illusions you must realize this

7. Use your good Oneness-conciousness to draw them nearer if they are physically incarnated or in the dimensions.

8. Replace vibrations of missing and lack, "your there and I'm here," with positive vibrations, as time and space are no factor.

9. Feel it as if you have never gone without it, see what shows up, add faith and patience.

10. You will feel tested, this is divine love...it doesn't come unless you are whole within and ready for it.

11. Unconditional love is expressed regardless of Age, Race, or religion.

More Later, hope that helps!

Blessings and Love,
Edie Sedgwick
as through Mariah E.

The Challenge

2009-10-07T08:39:00.000-07:00

In me trusting my past life has been in the physical features that have constituted "me."
because the physical is an extension of the spirit i can sometimes feel what it was like to have a different jaw line and how that affected how i lived. Just like if i had whiter complxion which she did, in this life i have more of a olive complextion.

So the challenge is in knowing the spirit of yourself over the lives, because if you know something, no one can take that away. its easy to look at two pictues for the one who isnt living it, and say there's nothing there. if you want to be good you have to know the spirit of things and then pieces together the rest not vice versa as much.

So the challenge comes in the layers of spirit contrasting flesh when matching up memories and face, feelings or in finding parallels or links.

Some people can be in so much pain that they literally cant anchor themselves in the current incarnation. and their self love seems to have been obliterated or their divine nature forgotten so long that it can be a downward spiral, but either way someone as torchured as that can also be a beautiful butterly come for a reason to set something in motion and thats it, meanwhile all the labels of the world wiill do no good.

This is how I feel when Edie Looks into Edie's eyes from another liftime. All I know is, she cried a lot of tears I hear in spirit and maybe God wanted to re-awaken her again to her divinity.I'd go so far to say she cried blood. the sensitive ones are the ones who need a little extra love, but they are so talented.

Sometimes it just takes a lifetime to make some real good progress.
some aren't even aware at all of their emotions and its been said
that they pass by their twinflame in the night like two ships on the sea,
sounds like a Arctic sea to me.

would I trade the tears?
no, because they
lead me upstairs.
would I befriend them again,
no,would I allow them now?
only if the higher weight pulls them.

People just seem to not know how to react toward others pain
even if its our closest confidante's
i beleive the new earth on its way is very compassionate
and pain will become a thing of the past maybe.

"Hey hey babe I got blood in my eyes for you."

The Challengs is worthwhile. remember that

Goodnight one and all...I spose i need rest.

Love,
Mariah/Edie

Wow! Ideas Flowing

2009-10-07T07:57:00.000-07:00

Oct 7th 10:57AM
--
Was making a green smoothie just a minute ago and a lot is coming through. It almost feels like the first time I'm trembling inside, which points toward a deep fear and also a deep truth. At first I was like many skeptics would be, when I began putting the pieces together

And even though I am nervous to bring this information out, it is my Soul wishing to be heard and I know that if it helps at least one person it is worth it, and one is already covered which is myself ha ha.

A few things brought about the re-incarnation feeling this morning.
It happened first because I put on a striped tang top, that hangs low and tight right on my hips. Edie would have liked this. Second feeling was the vibration of my legs hitting the stone kitchen tile the way the bones hit registered me to my previous life, all the while with a Dylan tune in my head. and i Literally felt like i was re-incarnated at that moment. Mabe it's a deep deja vu. Now i don't know if this because I am extremely in tune with myself, rarely do I go out these days, or if it is a common phenomena. I'd like to research the symptoms others find themselves in when they discover a past-life.

furthermore i felt my whole being and body connect to her body. my mom's boyfriend walked in the kitchen and walked out just as fast. I remember being such a tomboy the way she felt was how i felt in that moment, cut shorts to knees, messy hair, exposed legs, but a kind of feminine quality that offsets it, a total dichotomy. It went right through the center of me, and Edie is my name, i talked to myself, "Call me Edie,"I just feel more proud of it and more in touch that i do with Mariah. Who knows, maybe my mother at the time loved me more, and had her own motives for naming me edith.
I imagine being barefoot meant a lot to Edie the same as it has for me as Mariah.
I used to walk on the lava when i lived in hawaii barefoot. i was fascinated by feet on the ground moving. the next door neighbors and i we'd play outside all day long..........and thing is, the day felt like it would never end, so maybe its not true always that "time flies when your having fu," especially when you revel in the moment, i'd say time stops.

the little girl was young about 5, something about her feet and when they touched the earth, they were so fresh perfect toes and feet, nothing ugly about them, like most feet when you age. i was envious of her feet even, as she did cartwheels and they flailed in the air. i was jealous because i have problems with my feet, a slight bunion on the left and more of serious one on the right and besides graceful feet are important in ballet...Edie was a ballet girl no doubt, for Mariah it just never came to be for one reason or another.

Jeez i think to myself, maybe i'll start going by edie, then i thought of my coworker named edie and played a fantasy all in my head. Now that i think about it, all my life i didnt understand my name. Let alone i didn't understand who i was. I think more children than we can coniece feel this way. they look to their parents for answers to the big questions and find none but through their own trial and error, which leads me to another idea about how i relate to children.

that same little hawaiian girl, Ashley, she loved me i could tell, i realized i didnt have to do much just be myself, and i didnt have to say much. i think thats a noble quality of children. i guess it was a mutual learning with eachother. Could it be that my timeless spirit was living out what it might be like to be a mother while i was still a child. identifying with a new young body can be confusing when you forget where you came from, but you still have seeds of ideas bleiefs and fears from somewhere you cant place. Edie in fact died with the mommy mentality, she was devastated to have her dreams of a child with her true love shattered, or so she percieved it. i was afraid of what the others would thihk if i acted nurturing like my heart wanted to be versus a playmate that everyone thought i should be based on my age.
once again we are eternal timeless spirits and rules have been placed but thats all.

Sometimes i wonder if i'm on the leading edge of reincarnation tactics, because i have been actively trying to understand all this, actively pursuing finding myself, so i tend to learn it as i go, in other words i haven't read books on this type of thing and thats probably a good thing, which will make my writings more potent.

sometimes i feel like my eyes shake as i step into the world, and i think back to what sonia choquette says, something like "it takes great courage to live your spirit but its worth it"

I'll be sure to edit this later, this has been fascinating for me to remember and now re-alize.

God Bless,
Edie the eternal one
as through Mariah E.

Some Great Sites:

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Enjoy Learning about Twinflames!

1. http://www.juliespiritualhealer.com/Twin-Flames.php
2. http://www.twinsoulmates1111.com/telepathy-between-twins- 25-c.asp
3. http://www.lightparty.com/Spirituality/MichaelMessageLM10-2007.html
4. http://honeyblikk.multiply.com/journal/item/6
5. http://www.twinsong.us/press/twinflames-ch2.htm
6. http://www.psiland.com/articles/soulmates.html

Last But Not Least
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7. http://www.collapsingduality.com/AngelicaDorian.html

Twinsoul True Colors

2009-10-07T01:02:00.000-07:00

New Twinsoul/Twinflame Updates!!!!

I promise this blog will makes some more sense over time, as I get better aquainted.

There are many sites to learn about Twinsouls I will include them toward the end. I have been relentlessly fascinated about this for about 4 years now, and feel to be almost an expert in learning, the direct learning that occurs in the midst of my learning have been the greatest generator for understanding.

This has been an intense journey since 7/7/07 for me when my Twin and I connected brief in Orillia Canada. I was urged and drawn to go up there for his concert. I had not known all the pieces nor the truth yet...I just knew i was excited and felt close to his soul.

It takes great patience and faith to stay aligned to our Higher Selves. when we love ourselves and care for our spirit that is the quickest way I find to make your twin smile and feel good, no matter where they are!
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Last night at work, I felt his energy suddenly. I was at work it must have been 9 or 10...ironically we usually go to work from 8pm to midnight. Very Unusual schedule...He rivets the world with his music and stage presence, and I work retail in Hell, haha, for now doing my Karma's and focusing on spiritual learning with my 'Time.' It's okay for now but I KNOW..Without a Doubt these days that massive changes are coming, he knows and senses it too. I can sense it between the piano chords, and even the talks of the rain or the rain can feel like sunshine with this new awareness. Actually, I believe he was on stage singing when I felt this burst of happiness, the place he feels most at home.

I must be the luckiest girl in all the world is how I feel sometimes to be telepathically and eternally linked to the beloved well known Twinflame! O'Course I too was known once and that is not the point, but its only one more present to be grateful for. Most the time these days I feel lighter and completely faithful to a man who appears to be in a completely different time zone, age and whatever, but to me that's just superficial things.

Tonight I felt him telling me something along the lines of "it's okay sweetheart that you haven't written or played any songs, you don't have to impress me, we will play together and that will impress me and you'll catch on quick." He told me i should be proud already for what and who I am, and because I'm an Artist.

I think of him a LOT, but how do I know its His energy coming to me versus my own?
This is a good question. My experience, as the energy has been refining and getting stronger, is that I get a sensation below my navel area, I read something on this tonight, here's a line from that

heh, I just got an impulse that he is finally finally appreciating and enjoying his success in a way he never did before. Let me rephrase, since his soul has a renewed peace since the merging has begun he feels he has more "space" and energy in the present moment to really experience things, it naturally makes you more joyful when all fears can be calmed, "All my tears are gone [...] All I have and all I know is this dream of you, which keeps me living on"

One of life's more important aspects I believe is balancing and clearing karma's, and there are many layers sometimes. Right now I feel a slight blockage, if it weren't there we might be unified. However it is here and I know that it can't come together until it's divine timing. This is not something we as ego's or personalities can control. However our vibrations and feelings if we aim them high enough will quicken the process in this lifetime, while we still have time.

Here's a song he wrote for I believe his Twin Flame he loves her spirit very much,
even if they haven't come together in physical time yet, and may not even in this lifetime.
and as for me, I love to talk in third person :]

This Dream of You:
"I'm lost in the crowd all my tears are gone,
All I have and all I know,
Is this dream of you which keeps me living on.

Everything I touch seems to disappear,
Everywhere I turn you are always here
Ill run this race...Until my earthly death
Ill defend this place with my dying breath
From Achilles room and a curtain gloom
I saw a star from heaven fall
I turned and looked again but it was gone.

All I have, and all I know,
is this dream of you which keeps me living on."

Folks, it's true this is how it feels and they will be with you everyday
you will sense them, hear and feel them.

There was one more thing tonight I wanted to write:

when I posed the idea of the huge age gap
I got back- Because of his age he is wise and now better able to show it than when you two knew each other in the 60's. And you too are better able, having learned a lot from the place of true life,
when you 'died'...

Sometimes people have it backward, as Sylvia Browne says-Life is death and death is life
hmm...just think about it.

So here we are, him and I, on other ends of the line, the same age in spirit and we're making it just fine.

There's a deep sense of struggles ending when you have re-discovered your Twin-flame. If you are lucky like him and I you will promise to find each other even if briefly in each life. And sometimes you have to be strong because one may evaporate to better guide you on your way,
to delve into your deep blue heart and find wholeness, for when the time comes to be the Triune, the trinity. A greatest Friendship, where 1+1=3 all the way to infinity.

In Love and Light,
Edith M. Sedgwick
as through,
Mariah E.

P.S. If you analyze features and see a mirror and it leads you to a crossroad, you'll know by your inner knowing, it'll be all that remains

Ballerina Dreams

2009-10-05T00:05:00.000-07:00

Welcome to my page!
These days I'm growing more comfortable to express my most favorite life stories of my previous Life/Incarnation.
This will be a long journey and a story that may so far be untold and misunderstood by many.
I'm going to share glimpses of my previous life and the current now.
I Had Intense suspicions and synchronicities even years before the psychics started to tell me that I died in my previous life from drugs, that I died young...and then a few would come to tell me I was a woman named "Edie" and yet another said my name began with the initial "E."

The rest of this has been my own understandings and these days I'm growing more comfortable to express my most favorite life stories where I can truly say was my home and even my friends were my closest home compared to now.

I was reading more on twin-souls tonite, my psychic account got suspended and I was a bit disapointed I thought that it was from my own doing, but it turns out its from a credit card issue. I didn't want my expert account to be deleted. I signed up to help others and rarely ever ask for them to hire. It's cool because i have one of the top experts rating on there.

Anyways...tonight I've had pains pulsin' through me, looks like its another late night, sometimes I go three days without sleep and my heart hurts a lot, so I am doing my best to get on a normal schedule. Looks like all the criminals have gone down too, but Bobby is still here with me on this planet though he appears far. Some nite I jump up straight out of bed and have to write to him or a poem or something, its crazy.

So I saw a picture earlier of Edie Sedgwick balancing like a ballerina. It reminded me of when i was a little girl, I was my Daddies princess, I was a true ballerina but I didn't get classes. I was quiet and deepy withdrawn sometimes, and other times leading the way with laughter and charm.
My Dad bought me a jewelery box once, it had a little rotating ballerina it was really special to me, i'd get lost in those things, anything imaginative...Christmas globes, all of that. tragically pure at heart and absorbed in it.

This Diary shall help me greatly.

Most of the writing go scattered on my computer or in notebooks all around my room. I know this may seem crazy but I am Here I am Back in a new body, I told my ma the other day that I think God wanted me to be in a youthful new body while all my other friends aged but that's just a perspective that makes me feel good, and especially good for my TwinSoul/ TwinFlame who happens to have lived with me in that lifetime. He continues to be my most beloved friend and when we connected recently at his shows it has changed a lot of things. I feel proud that I can be beautiful and attractive to him after all these years haha. I think he would agree. Who knows maybe he will revert too and come back soon when he passes bodies. Either way, the bond is so strong that life, time and Death can't intrude for long, and either way i will recognize his spirit. We truly are Eternal Spirit living a human life my friends. If you don't believe me I hope you will come to know it yourself sometime.

So just where is the cut off line, and what is too much? I'm not sure when it comes to true love or care, that's the one thing I know.

I want to and I love to share my experiences with my readers about this wonderful journey. I'd like to talk about how it began and the "evidence" I have; the people I knew in that life that i have connected to again by soul...not body. Because see...my brain in this life has no reason to know the things it does, that's how I like to explain it. If it were this brain that dreams the details I dream, I think that would be an illusion, there is much beyond the physical and i've been a huge researcher on metaphysical studies for about 5 years now. If anyone wants to know glimpses of the true story of Edith M. Sedgwick.

You may not believe me, but I'll give you the benefit of the doubt by saying, If i am not the spirit of Edie, she stands beside me and within me, as one with me and like the show must go on, this story she feels needs to be heard and may help others who struggle with deep past life memories, loss and the longing and the coming close of true unification.

One night a random reader said that she mistakes my body for hers. I began respecting her as a seperate entity or life expression, in that sense by talking in the third person we began to get more insight maybe just because it creates more of a space for answers to come through.

Since then I was torn and tortured, and someone even asked me "Does it feel strange to have the spirit of a dead person with you?"

...And my reply was absolutely not,

for me there is no separation and I don't believe in death the same as others. The dreams I have had are as myself in another time, this is the only reason I'm inclined to believe that the reader misunderstood my situation. More where this came from.

For 23 years of my present life I was in a sort of Spiritual Amnesia and I'm bringing the pieces together now with faith.

I just heard a loud ringing in my left ear, something came through but I'm not sure, i'm running out of steam tonight, but I'm so glad to be starting this I've been putting it off for a few reasons.
I feel ready and if there is anyone who would like me to help them with their Twinsoul Questions I'd Love to talk
my skype ID is: Historys1today

Blessings,
Mariah & Edie

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